Currently Listening Breakaway By Kelly Clarkson see related

HAHAHAHA  i don't have to hide xanga anymore-!!!!
I miss this site- it's so...cheery. slash. kinda creepy!

Wee! I have like eight million other random xangas now!
I'm a bored freak!
That's why I like me!

PS. I'm going to New York!!!!
God is SOOO Good!

Well now... today had......sucked. adni have spent the entirety of it in bed, attempting to convince myself that there WAS something worth getting up for... and i succeded and found it and now i am up.

Now i shall come to the part of this where i say that xanga has begun to lose its sparkle for me..... mostly becuase no matter what i would like to sayd or think i truly cannot express myself in my true form here any more, and i refuse to waste time typing absolute crap that dos not express my feelings simple to keep my school happy, how is my mind challenged to new creative heights when it is restricted and edited to fit some sort of dress code. And now with all the hoopla over xanga my mom has some interest in it, which doesn't bother me but it annoys me cause this space is no longer my own.... so as many of my close freinds have already begun to do.... i'm going away, i don't think i will shut this down, let it live i take back nothing! Congratulations big brother, you have begun to succed in taking away all of our outlets for individuality

Avoir-Em

Currently Playing Cabaret: The New Broadway Cast Recording (1998 Broadway Revival) By John Kander, Fred Ebb see related

Working out today? Didn't work out.... but i ended up doing ballet in my room to the Phantom soundtrack till like 3 this morning so it was ok...

Today was Trev's birthday HAPPY BIRTHDAY TREV! there was a suprise party and a fun dinner at Mi Cocina, and it was good. I hope trev had a Good birthday he deserves it, we sang kareoke and played piano and sang LesMis, and me and trev and alexann danced hehehehehe... it was super good times...

my parents brought home a car for me to test drive, my mom is getting an aviator.. bla i wanted one of those, why does she need a big car she only drives herself, but they brought me home a toyota solara, in royal blue, its super pretty and drives like a lexus and has a beautiful interior and a sunroof and al the good electric stuff i like, what do we think? i'm not sure, i'm going to drive it more in the morning, i just dunno if i like it better than the Qx4,,, but we shall see!

Currently Playing The Phantom of the Opera (2004 Movie Soundtrack) By Andrew Lloyd Webber, Richard Stilgoe, Gerard Butler, Emmy Rossum, Patrick Wilson, Charles Hart see related

So today started out with mommy still taking part in the"not likeing me" ritual, but then after we got stuck in traffic and drove around in circles we decided to go eat lunch and spend sometime talking and it seems we've moved on into the phase sometimes called "developing our relationship" No but really, we had a good afternoon and i'm fully releaved that she likes me again cause it makes everything happier! and just for the record I love my mommy!

Not to much exciting right now, mostly feeling overwhelmed and also feeling like ther ar all these great people i want to spend time with, but also really enjoying my low maintenence downtime to myself and wishing i had more of it, resulting in me not spending time with the people i want to see, which makes me feel bad and stupid, but my mental sanity comes first!

Okay off too sleep, i'm going to try and work out in the morning, we shall see how that works out... hehehe i made a punn! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Currently Playing Love. Angel. Music. Baby. (Deluxe) By Gwen Stefani see related

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It's offical, I  have a stye (ew!!!!)  on my right eye, SICK!! it's likemaking it to where my eye won't open all the way so i've been like driving and working out with one eye! hehehe, anywhoooo, 

Im soo proud i FINALY got off mybutt and away form my computer/bed long enough to work out, like all afternoon- i feel great! I would have kept going but i'm pretty sure i wreak and the people around were probubly holding their breath, eeek! wow was that to much information?......... cause I think it was! 

-So my mom is in the state known as "Hating Me" right now.... i'n not really sure why, considering all i've done since christmas eve is clean, excercise, sleep, read, and work on my applications, i'm pretty sure i didn't have time to directly offend her, but oh well, since when have mothers ever needed a reason to suddenly hold a grudge, I'm sure she'll get over it, and if not then oh well, i'll just take lot's of aderall and go avoid her at Barnes and Nobles  *hmmmph*    It is my opinion that sometimes mothers are just (like all of us are at times) in a bad mood, and no matterwhat it is we are doing, or saying, it can easily be miscontrued as "being disrepectuful" and trying to "be in control"... whatever, like i care enough to be in control of whatever it is I am sipposed tobe trying to take control of. grrr. i understand bad moods, i tend to be in one alot, but i wish she could just admit that was what this was, and agree to let me leave her be, or let her go be on her own to i dunno shop it of or something, instead even when i offer to do something nice for her i'm just "patronizing her" and treating her like a child. okay........Whatever!

--- This is why i'm never having children, i don't want to inflict my moodiness on any innocentchild who had no say in the matter of being born!